hello

this week has gone very quickly. many things happened though. honours night, swims, break-less days until 4 plus, loads of work etc etc. during this week, i encountered this situation where i would never understand. it was a big hit to me. it happened so unexpectedly and that really threw me off track for the entire day + the following day. i kept crying but that's not the point. haha. i'm fine now, thank you =)

after that day, i kept thinking. what would happen if i'm never here? what am i like from another person's perspective? do i look like i really know how to mask things (backstabbing and lying)? really, who am i actually?
this is all so philosophical. i just can't answer all of them. man, that freak incident really made me do self-reflections. it may be a good thing since everyone has to understand themselves and know your purpose in life in order to find happiness. As argued in GP lesson, we all thought that happiness was an ideal value that all human would want to attain. in trying to attain happiness, people would then project the 7 human sins. it all came about in the pursuit to find happiness. there is a time for everything in life.
as i was blog-hopping just now, i realised that many things that may seem insignificant to one may be of great significance to another, unknowingly. how life works! it's just so amazing.

well, life is unpredictable so we've all got to live our life to the fullest. Never regret. Live to forgive and forget. That would most probably make us relatively happier.

Oh, and i finally realised what true friends are. They share your darkest secrets, mainly because you trust them. There are some people who just can't keep their mouths shut. However close they may seem, they'll leak out stories, creating trouble for society (that's a little exagerated but i'm sure you know what i'm getting at) I guess that's what differentiates a good friend from a true friend. i've got lots of good friends, at least 8 of them=) aaawwwwwwwwwwwwwww and some closer friends but not very close.i think the rest should be classified as superficial since most of the time, it's a hi and bye thing. There was once, not long ago when my classmate told me flatly in my face,'' i think you should open up more to your friends''
Do you really think that i'm being quite conservative person, in terms of personal thoughts?

It touched my heart

The other day, I was waiting for my parents to pay up at the cashier at giant. The was this Caucasian mum with 3 young children, say the oldest being 6 and the youngest 3? So, all her groceries were child-related products, from diapers to biscuits to milk and 3 toy balls. Just as the cashier scanned the 3 rubber balls the mum started to unwrap the balls from its platic bags. One by one, she passed a ball to each of the 3 children. You could really see them smiling. I smiled to myself too, as i watched them attempt to catch the ball after bouncing it once on the ground. It's really just amazing how a child's innocent smile can melt your heart. the 2 girls were happily playing with their balls, looking amazed at how the other party could catch the ball. Well, that's not it. after the youngest of the 3, who was in a pram threw his ball forward, the oldest girl went to retrieve it. As she happily returned the ball to her younger brother, her mother misunderstood the situation and started demanding for her(the oldest child's) ball back. That child was really shocked and disappointed yet, didn't dare to disobey her mother. Her mum took back the ball for some time before she started begging her mother.
'' pleeeeeaze mommy, can i have the ball back? mommy, please, i'll like to have my ball back. please mommy...*sob sob* mommy? mommy? mommy please?''
Her mother did not pay any attention to her until after paying for her groceries and leaving the cashier. As i watched, tears welled up in that child's eyes. She was sniffing and begging her mother to reutrn her her ball. Her sister was watching, by the side, afraid to speak. Yet, upon seeing her older sister really about to cry, she begun to hug her older sister and wiping the tears off her sister's face. She even offered to share her ball and started patting her sister on her head mumbling,''awww, don't cry, don't cry. i'll share my ball with you ok?''

isn't it sweet? i mean. imagine! they are only kids. 6 years old. primary one kids and they love each other so much! i wonder if i was so nice to my sister when i was that young. hmmmm...the last time i asked my mum about my behaviour in the past, i was the big bully. well well. i guess i answered my question.

hello world

i'm lousy at studying! rah! many things have happened since the last time i blogged.

prelim results, formal lunch, prep talks, gg back to css, SGC rush, open house, '6 more weeks' talks by so many teachers, etc etc etc.

there's like so little time and this is really freaking me out! SO SCARY! i'm scared, really really. this is the first time in my life that i've so scared over an examination. ok, it's reasonable enough to say that it's because this is and will be the most major exam ever. it decided a student's fate. yours, mine, OUR fate.

if anyone is not panicking now, they must have done well in their prelims! just one question now, one question can get me into the mood of studying. let me teach you. just say these magic words and you'll see that i'll be studying within minutes/ seconds.

'' how's your prelims?''

you know how bad it is now. =s

honours night is coming and i'm not looking forward to it. As 26th sept comes closer, 10th october will be a step nearer too. after that, it'll be followed by 3 weeks before THE DAY.

aye. i'm still looking forward to the day after As. we will be able to paddle again then and i'll not feel guilty eating so much in school! =)

i feel fat now. it's so sad! rah!
just the other day. i was excited. I met Samme at the can deck and i was mentioning that i feel like paddling. Then, suddenly, she rattled excitedly,
'' Hey ky, do you want to paddle today?!''
'' Huh? today? i didn't even bring any clothes!''
'' Go borrow!!! Want? want? we can go and paddle today!''
'' eh....wait, we don't have the keys and everything...''
'' oh yar! haiyer.''

As you can see, we both were disappointed coz we didn't have the keys to the shed thus not being able go down and paddle! the excitement died down upon remembering that we weren't holding on to the keys. rah!

paddling. i want to paddle. i want to swim. i want to sing. i want to be free.

MY sis is so going to blog about me...

I did too many stupid things in the few hours I spent with her yesterday. haha!

Sob....oh yes and yesterday, we went to play that basketball game in the arcade and we broke the high score! woohoo!

The show was nice and quite funny yep! hee a cooking rat in the kitchen! wheee...so cool!

Oh and yesterday's trgwas quite fun too...We all had to wait for >2 hours just to paddle ie a little more than 7200 seconds only (let me emphasize this: ONLY) haha...well, all thanks so joanne who managed to out-talk, out-argue everyone else! hee! thanks joanne! =) =)
But well, no one complained about the wait after the paddling session coz it was too enjoyable and the feeling of paddling again with your team mates can easily overwhelm everything else. hee. of course, i didn't paddle with the k2 coz i still think they're very fast and even their slow paddle can out-paddle my fast paddling anytime. Rah... haha... and i'm sorry that all of you had to wait for me...sorrrrrrrryyy....

yeah, yesterday was a fun fun fun day!

And the nelo came and and and margy has a very nice pink nelo! oh man... i so want to get one nelo too, if i have 4.4 to spare...rats...haha...

til that day comes, i'll still have to borrow other people's boats!

ciao~